Try and try again

I have tried to write this blog post for several days now, but always ended up deleting it. Let’s see if this time is any different… Fingers crossed!



*deletes and starts over*



Fuck. Right. What am I actually trying to say?

Yeah, that’s a good question.



*deletes and starts over*



I am coming to realize certain things. About myself, about my flaws and imperfections, about my mistakes. It is not particularly pleasant.


At the moment I feel like a child, being told by a gentle guiding voice what to do. That voice, is it my own inner self speaking or is it from beyond me? I have no clue, and I don’t actually think it matters much.


Like a stubborn child I hear what is said and I know what I’m supposed to do, but I dunwanna! I kick and cry at the hand that feeds me, refusing to accept. Refusing to learn. But at the same time I know. I know.


It is painful to face ones own flaws. But in order to correct anything, one must first identify the mistake.


Pride be damned, part of me must break in order to grow.





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